Thursday, March 7, 2013

Oh, the Places You'll Go

Have you read the Dr. Suess book, Oh the Places You'll Go? It's a really good book and I think it is the last book he wrote while he was alive. Anyway, I feel like we (meaning my little family) are in the part that talks about people waiting. Waiting for this or that or whatever. I try and try not to think of us as waiting for something or anticipating a life change, but lately I feel that way.

Justin is looking for a new job right now so we have put house hunting on hold for now. There are several reasons for this. He doesn't really love the work he is doing and he doesn't see himself there long term. Instead of finding a job later on when we already have a house, we decided he should find something now since it might influence several things with the purchase of a home. The market is definitely better than it has been, but it is still pretty competitive in Utah and add to that the fact that Justin has only had just under a year of "real" experience as an attorney. There are still plenty of attorneys with more experience looking for jobs.

While we definitely feel lucky/blessed that we have the greatest set up here in the basement with my parents, we definitely want to be in our own place. Trust me, I am pretty sure I will cry for a couple weeks after we move because my mom is so helpful to me. But still, I have a hard time not having my kids in real bedrooms with closets and doors. We really don't have many choices of where to put Jackson, so he is with us in our room, but he is the lightest sleeper. We pretty much tiptoe in at night and hope we don't wake him up. I can't wait to get ready for bed with the lights on in our own room!

When we first started looking for a house, we set a deadline for this summer before Molly starts kindergarten, but now I'm not sure if that will happen. I plan on starting her at the elementary school I actually went to. I thought it wouldn't be good for her to start and move schools, but I've since decided that she will be in kindergarten and really it won't be a big deal at all. She makes friends wherever she goes and I don't see her having a hard time making an adjustment. She changed preschools this year after a couple of months and was totally fine, so I'm sure it will be the same if it comes to it.

While I know that owning a home isn't the easiest, I look forward to us learning and growing together as a family and relying on each other to get through the trials while being happy with our successes. I don't consider myself a major planner, but I do like to have some plan for sure and although this isn't exactly how I pictured things, we really do have SO much to be grateful for. I don't want to sound ungrateful. I love that my parents have been a big part of my children's lives so far and that they have such a close relationship with them.  I know we will miss them when we leave.

I know we have accomplished some great things while we've been here. Justin graduated from law school and we've had 2 more children while living here. We've been to some neat places and tried new things.

I do know that things will work out and I might even look back and think how easy or simple things were when we lived here. I sure hope so! Do you ever feel like this? I'm sure you do once in a while too.

P.S. I should probably say that I was up with Jackson 3 times last night as opposed to him sleeping through the night. So please don't judge me too harshly. Since I use this blog as my journal, I decided it was ok to have a more "real" post.


erinmalia said...

oh honey, why would we judge you? This is your blog and your life and this is something you guys are going through. You'll get through it and then it'll be something else. :)

Emily said...

No I don't feel like we are waiting on anything and I never day dream about what lies ahead in life....said Emily, never. Ha ha. Waiting is the absolute WORST!! I know how badly you want and deserve all those things you are talking about. I have no reasons why you shouldn't get them as you've planned, but apparently I don't know everything! Hang in there! You'll have a beautiful home and a job Justin loves in no time, you guys are too great not to!

Coleen Ure said...

I think we all feel this way at times. I just spent about two years feeling that way...I know all about it. It is a major trial to be waiting and trying not to wait, trying to just live your life. I didn't handle it perfectly at all, but I did learn (eventually) to pray and ask what I was supposed to be learning from the waiting/uncertainty. That was helpful and the insights were worth the trial (just barely). It's easy for all your family/friends to say that you will be just fine because we can all see how great you and Justin are and we know he will land a great job, but for the ones waiting it is much harder to keep a positive attitude. Hang in there!!! Good things will come your way.

Wendy said...

Your kids have gotten so big since I checked your blog last! They are all so darling! I had fun catching up with your family. Maybe I'll update my blog one of these days. :)